Sunday, January 26, 2020

Week 3 - 2020



So, week three in 2020 is over.  It’s been an "okay" week.  It was very nice having a three-day work week, down one from my usual four.  The previous week was stressful for me, but things seem to be settling and I can see my way through to a brighter tomorrow.

MHN has a meeting at Smilow tomorrow; please send a prayer for him.  No more bad news, please!

I used to make pizza every week but haven’t in quite some time, until yesterday.  I don’t make my own dough but buy the basil infused dough from Big Y.  I let it rest for several hours in an olive oil drizzled bowl and punch it down once.  There is enough olive oil in the bowl that I do not have to add more when I stretch the dough in the pan.  I have done many combinations of vegetables and yesterday's was garlic, slightly sizzled, and then added a package of chopped spinach, about a half cup of riced cauliflower and about a half cup of leftover mushrooms, chopped up, and sautéed together.  When the mushrooms started to shrink down and the mixture was fragrant, I removed it from the burner.  Stretched the dough onto a baking pan (I have a stone but prefer a large cooking sheet.) and I flipped it over to be sure the pan was greased.  Then, I thinly sliced tomatoes, covered them with the veggie mixture; sprinkled half with shredded mozzarella and left half “plain” for MHN.  Drizzled the leftover olive oil from the bowl on top of the pizza and then baked at 375 degrees until crust and mozzarella was brown.  In my oven that’s about 20-25 minutes.  It such a forgiving and embracing recipe…there is no wrong way to do this.

SJT is back from Mexico. She was touched by the natural beauty, but she did get sick, even though she avoided drinking the water.  I guess the fruits & vegetables are washed in same, so it’s difficult to avoid.  Glad she is back in the US.  Wonder where her next adventure will take her! 

I am so GRATEFUL that she is not like me.  I have said this so many times.  I did travel with her father back in the day but after a bad flight coming back from Orlando, I vowed to never get on a plane again.  Truth be told (as always), I am a fearful person.  Not just a fear of flying, but doing things solo like driving to a new destination any time, driving at night, being too far from home, etc. are a few of my fears.  I think fear was ingrained in me from my first generation parents.  This of course was based on their upbringing, so it’s not a blaming thing.  It was what it was. 

So, I don’t have much else to share at this point, so we’ll get right to it -
Status of  Resolutions, Week 3:

Lose 15 pounds…. Status quo.
 Start doing some form of the e-word.  Does stretching count?

Sell this home and find a new one.  And then, decorate new place with some new furnishings and be in love with it.  Prayers

Continue packing up the house.  Yes!

Have big tag sale in the Spring.  Yes!

Read a minimum of 100 books, about two per week. (Not going to count cookbooks.)

1. City of Girls by Elizabeth Gilbert… 3* predictable but enjoyable

2. Bookish Life of Nina Hill by Abbi Waxman… 3* easy reading but junior high-ish; read   for on-line book club.

3. The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison… 4* found this to be very sad

4. Too Many Men by Lily Brett * Still in process

5. Erotic Stories for Punjabi Widows by Balli Kaur Jaswal.    4* (Those Punjabi Widows sure love erotic!) This was a Reese book club choice; Never knew she had a club.

6.  Eat Joy - Stories & Comfort Food edited by Natalie Garrett  Essays by literary writers with their story and comfort foods, each with a recipe.  5* Recipes didn’t interest me much, but the essays did.

Now and Again by Julia Turshen Cookbook with menus, recipes and then ideas of what to do with the leftovers.  3* Garnered a couple of recipes from here.

Smitten Kitchen Every Day:  triumphant & Unfussy new Favorites by Deb Perelman 3* Copied a few recipes from this one, too.

Try 50 new recipes.  (i.e. pickled eggplant, jams, jellies, challah, pasta)

 1.  Stir fry with stuff on hand...voila!
 2. Vanilla Bean Scones
 3. Eggplant Risotto
4.  Strawberry muffins

Weed out my recipe stash.  Cleaned out recipe box & small accordion folder.  More to go...
  
Blog once a week, even if I have nothing to say.  Wednesdays!  I will change this to Sundays

Participate in one holiday craft fair, probably November 2020.  Thinking about it…

Go through each craft and art magazine (There are lots!!) and save the projects that I want to try.    Went through 4 magazines (out of around #100); Ripped the pages out clipped them for a new folder! 

In line with the previous goal, go through my craft stash and list each project I have started that has fallen by the wayside and finish them:
To date:  Sew angel felt ornaments; Sew up ugly sweater & cactus ornaments; Finish rose needlepoint; Crochet market tote; color in coloring books; tons of yarn – finish block afghan and come up with other ideas.  Maybe learn to knit cozy socks? Have lots of fabric – skirts & jumpers, curtains, what else can I think of??  Candlewick pillow kit; Do something with wool roving; more resin projects; I have tons of scrapbook papers – do something!  Finish braided basket; Bought special needle to make braided rugs; Bought paint pens for use on rocks & shells; bought a pin vise to use on shells; Scrapbook for Sarah; finish making beach themed ornaments; Have tons of beads & old jewelry – what to do with them?  Yada, yada     

Make Christmas cards for 2020.  Decided on idea and working on them.

Have 50 mini dates with MHN – nope  

Take a long weekend getaway with my daughter.  Thinking about this...

Until next week, my friends, sending peace, love & rock 'n roll. xo

Saturday, January 18, 2020

Resolutions - Week 2 (50 More to go!)


So, it's week two in the new year.  My eyes and ears are open and I'm not liking what is happening.  I am afraid that my mouth will also be opening soon, too.  Life is fleeting and sometimes one just needs to grab the bull by the horns (or balls) as it were, and make a decision.  Weighing pros and cons and mental health.   I don't mean to be mysterious but I am not at liberty to say more at this time.  Just know I am muddling through some shit.

Daughter is in Mexico researching for her next book.  I admire (or as she used to say as a toddler, "egmire") her follow through and tenacity; her ability to make things happen and the fact that she is tougher than anyone else I know.  But as her mother, I do know her questioning and softer sides of her, too.  She is a bundle of amazingness...I am so proud to be her mother.  My words are not unique...every mother feels the same about her brood.  I know that, but it is not going to stop me from speaking my heart.  

Had my mammogram this week and got an all clear.  Does it stop the worry?  Do you have any clue how many women get an all clear and then develop cancer anyway?  No guarantees.  Anywhere.  Ever.

I am so excited to hopefully be snowed in this afternoon.  Going to make some chicken vegetable soup, do a little more paperwork & then rest and read.  Housework will wait until tomorrow and Monday.

I leave you with this    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=smEqnnklfYs

I also have a dream.  

Lose 15 pounds…. Based on my goal weight, I still need to lose 15 pounds.  What can I say?  I have a sweet tooth.  I have a salty and savory tooth.  I enjoy eating.


 Start doing some form of the e-word.  Nope

Sell this home and find a new one.  Praying on this.

Decorate new place with some new furnishings and be in love with it.  Can’t do this until we sell.

Continue packing up the house.  Yes!

Have big tag sale in the Spring.  Yes!

Read a minimum of 100 books, about two per week. 

1. City of Girls by Elizabeth Gilbert… 3* predictable but enjoyable
2. Bookish Life of Nina Hill by Abbi Waxman… 3* easy reading but junior high-ish; read   for on-line book club.
3. The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison… 4* found this to be very sad
4. Too Many Men by Lily Brett * In process
5. Erotic Stories for Punjabi Widows by Balli Kaur Jaswal.    In process
6.  Eat Joy - Stories & Comfort Food edited by Natalie Garrett  Essays by literary writers with their story and comfort foods, each with a recipe.  5* Recipes didn’t interest me much, but the essays did.
7. Now and Again by Julia Turshen Cookbook with menus, recipes and then ideas of what to do with the leftovers.  3* Garnered a couple of recipes from here.
8.  Smitten Kitchen Every Day:  triumphant & Unfussy new Favorites by Deb Perelman 3* Copied a few recipes from this one, too.

Try 50 new recipes.  (i.e. pickled eggplant, jams, jellies, challah, pasta)

 1. Stir fry with stuff on hand...voila!
 2. Vanilla Bean Scones
 3. Eggplant Risotto

Weed out my recipe stash. 
        Cleaned out recipe box & small accordion folder.  More to go...
  
Blog once a week, even if I have nothing to say.  Wednesdays!  Here I am – a little late but I have shown up.

Participate in one holiday craft fair, probably November 2020.  Too soon.

Go through each craft and art magazine (!! There are lots!!) and list all the projects that I want to try.    Not yet

In line with the previous goal, go through my craft stash and list each project I have started that has fallen by the wayside and finish them.  Off the top of my head, scrapbook for my daughter; more work with resin; braided basket; paint rocks; sew; rose needlepoint, etc.   Started but not finished.

Make Christmas cards for 2020.  Putting together some ideas

Have 50 mini dates with MHN - nope

Take a long weekend getaway with my daughter.  We’re talking ideas, both for weekend getaway and a real vacation which won’t be for a while. 


Tuesday, January 7, 2020

End of Week One - 2020 (51 More to Go!!)



Everything is pretty much status quo around here.  

MHN continues with the oral chemo which he seems to be tolerating well.  He still is having issues with pain.  He pushes himself to the point of exhaustion;  I guess it makes him feel “normal”.  He is a doer and was never lazy in the 20+ years that I have known him.  I guess it’s just the nature of his inner beast.

The tree and decorations are put away.  This holiday was a real bust with so many other things interfering with how I envisioned it, beginning in November with the passing of my ex-husband, my daughter’s father.  Then was the ten-year anniversary of the passing of my sister, Ann.  Then finding out MHN’s disease had spread.  

The holidays!!  One part of me says “why bother?” and another part of me says “do the best you can.”  We were alone Christmas Eve and Christmas Day.  (We had visitors Christmas Eve day, but MHN was in the ER in the morning for pain, so it wasn’t a joyous day.)  He is Jewish and Christmas Eve lunch was brisket, latkes and the like.  I am thinking next year, it will be an Italian Christmas all the way. On Christmas Day. With presents.  No more checks.  

I am doing the very best I can with everything that is going on here, but I am finding that minute fragments of resentment are making its presence known.  I try to remain positive and upbeat, but 90% of the conversation in these parts revolves around cancer, treatments, studies, diet and the like.  On one hand, I truly applaud his vigor in doing the research but on the other hand, let’s take a break.  For a day.  Time is flying by and we are losing what is limited time we have remaining together.  Ya, know??

One of my resolutions is to have 50 mini dates with MHN.  We can’t go out to eat and we can’t be away from home for more than 3-4 hours max (if he is feeling good).  So, the mini date ideas are something along the lines of going to Walmart together; taking a drive down to the beach in Madison; poking around Job Lot, go to the library and the like.  I am not looking to be wined, dined & dazzled; I just want to get out of the house with him.

Okay. The pity party is now over; thank you for letting me vent.  I do feel guilty but I need to let it out somewhere.  And shrinks are way too expensive.  And of course, this little blog o'mine is my emotional outlet.  (There is even a photo for proof.)

Update on resolutions:

Lose 15 pounds…. Based on my goal weight, I need to lose 15  pounds.

Start doing some form of the e-word.  Not yet

Sell this home and find a new one.  Praying on this.

Decorate new place with some new furnishings and be in love with it.  Can’t do this until part one is addressed.

Continue packing up the house.  Yes!

Have big tag sale in the Spring.  Yes!

Herb garden on deck in new place (if I have a deck); otherwise windowsill herb garden.  

Read a minimum of 100 books, about two per week. 
1. City of Girls by Elizabeth Gilbert
2. Bookish Life of Nina Hill by Abbi Waxman

Try 50 new recipes.  (i.e. pickled eggplant, jams, jellies, challah, pasta)
 1. Stir fry with stuff on hand (not with a recipe)
 2. Vanilla Bean Scones (not a new recipe)

Weed out my recipe stash. 
       Cleaned out recipe box & small accordion folder.
  
Blog once a week, even if I have nothing to say.  Wednesdays!  Here I am - a day early, even!!

Participate in one holiday craft fair, probably November 2020.  Too soon.

Go through each craft and art magazine (!! There are lots) and list all the projects that I want to try.    Not yet

In line with the previous goal, go through my craft stash and list each project I have started that has fallen by the wayside and finish them.  Off the top of my head, scrapbook for my daughter; more work with resin; braided basket; paint rocks; sew; rose needlepoint, etc.   Not yet

Make Christmas cards for 2020.  Putting together some ideas

Have 50 mini dates with MHN - Week 1 was a bust.

I love our dog groomer, but this is something I would love to learn to do myself.  I have the kit.  I need to watch the video and give it a shot.  In the meantime, I have cut her visits from every six weeks to 6 times per year, so I will need to at least trim her as needed.  I have been brushing & trimming her; not sure this is an entirely realistic goal.  She is a beautiful girl and I don’t want to detract from her appearance because of my frugality.  I will make the appointments for every 2 months and keep her neat and clean in between.  Removing this as a goal for 2020.

Take a long weekend getaway with my daughter.  We’re talking ideas, both for weekend getaway and a real vacation which won’t be for a while. 

See you next week.  xo